Tomorrow will be my one year anniversary with the most amazing guy I've ever know
One year ago I made the best decision in my life. I said yes. And ever since then he’s made me feel beautiful.
Charles is my person, and I am completely sure I want to marry him. I have been sure for quite some time now. But of course it wasn’t a silly decision. I know for a fact that Charles is going to take care of me for the rest of my life. That he will love me and that he will never betray me. I love him more than words could ever say. Since he is my first serious relationship I wanted to take things slow and careful. We started out as just friends and nothing more. For the two or three years that I knew him, I was never attracted to him or really that close to him. But the last year or so before we started going out things changed. We started to understand each other a little more. A little after school started my senior year in high school, Charles got a girl friend and I didn’t really know her. Quite frankly after talking to her for a minute or two I didn’t like her. Soon enough he fell in love with her and not soon after that she moved away. This is where I knew they weren’t going to last. As his friend I supported him, but as I started to find out what kind of person she was I tried to tell him. I tried to open his eyes. But he wouldn’t listen. At one point they had taken a break and I was happy. I didn’t know why I was but… I was nonetheless. And when they got back together I was furious and what I didn’t know was I was attracted to him. Our recent blossoming friendship had grown for me. It wasn’t until they had broken up for good that I realized how much I liked him. I wanted to be there for him. It wasn’t just a friend comforting another, but something more. My friends Arica and Steph are the ones who pushed me for being with him. So one day I asked him what it would be like if we took our friendship further and I think I caught him off guard. I was curious and he wasn’t ready for another relationship. So I waited. I was patient for a while.. but there came a time when I just wanted to know if I had a chance. And I did. But when it came time for us to see each other, he had to go across the country. So I waited for him to come back, not completely knowing if he would be coming back for me or not. When he got back I got really sick. And not just “oh my tummy hurts” it was a weak and painful sick. I was sick for the next week. We would talk and by the way he spoke, I knew he was going to ask me out. I later found out that he even asked for my best friends permission. She said to go on ahead, because she has never seen me as happy before (and I am a generally happy person). But finally when I felt better we had our chance. And he finally asked me what I had been waiting to hear for who knows how long; I said “Of course.”
At first things were different for us. We weren’t just friends, and we didn’t know where to go from there. So we took it slow. Well, at least I wanted to. Having self discovery class really helped me with our relationship… I don’t know how I could ever thank Mr. Heeres. But after three months or so, he said the three words I didn’t expect. “I love you." And I didn’t know how to respond, because honestly at that point I cared a lot for him, but I wasn’t sure exactly if it was love. But throughout the day I gave it some thought and I told him with no regret, that I loved him too. Because in reality, I did. I loved him more than I had planned. I love him to my core. And I don’t want anyone else but him. Because he completes me. He is, in all cheesiness, my soul-mate. And although it is only our one year anniversary, it feels like a lifetime, because that’s all I want from him.
All I want is to live in Washington with him. I want to raise little gingers and have a bunch of pets. I want to be the crazy neighbors everyone loves. And I want to die in my warm bed with him at my side, when I have lived a full life and I am ready to leave it. Because honestly, a life, just isn’t worth living if he isn’t by my side.